When I walked around the rooms of your home, you had so many wonderful and intriguing pictures of Tibetan spiritual Masters and Yogis. (Remember you had them there to protect you). In which case they certainly brought much magic into that place. When I looked into their eyes I felt a feeling of great knowing. These faces were of people that knew, what I was seeking.
Jan.s: Nicole when we first met what struck me most was your incredible openness and joy for life
Nicole: Yes I was very open and full of joy, it was the first time in my life since my youth that I felt free. I had let go of a big relationship with a guy and finished full-time very hard work. And then had found a new zest in life for helping people heal themselves.
Jan.s: Would you like to share some insights with us about your experience with Reiki…
Nicole: Reiki is a very wonderful and powerful healing tool. When I first discovered Reiki I was going through life changing experiences and having tuned into Reiki frequency made my transition meaningful and very spiritual. I was experiencing very clear messages through my dreams. It was a very personal and mystical time. Especially through the period of receiving Reiki initiations (attunements). So then, having such deep trust and pure intension I was really helping to make major positive changes in peoples lives which was and is always rewarding.
Jan.s: Since those days your life has taken you on many new journeys… Would you share some of those with us.
Nicole: Meeting you played a big part in the direction my life went there after. Having visited some Tibetan Buddhist institutes, engaged in group meditations and having met with and received great blessings from very Noble Lamas (Tibetan Buddhist Masters) with you. I felt the need to search for my Root Guru, my heart teacher. Then after sitting into a compassionate and wise talk from Venerable Tenzin Palmo whose name now is Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo.I decided to go on a Spiritual Pilgrimage to India and seek my Master.
So on a wing and a prayer, I did just that. First I chose to go to Northern India, to Dharamsala where I met and received teachings from the Dalai Lama.Then I travelled to Jaipur to sit into a ten day silent meditation retreat. Loved it. The monkeys in the trees during our breaks were very entertaining.
From there I took a train to Varanasi, sat on the side of the Mother Ganga. Ganges River watching bodies burn. (I was close to the Holy crematorium). I also watched the white dolphins surface and dive down into the mirror like surface of the water.
From Varanasi I went to Bodh Gaya , where Buddha became Enlightened. Still hadn’t found my Guru but I got the internal message to go to Darjeeling. By bus I arrived at Darjeeling. Darjeeling is renowned for its tea plantations.
There is this little train that travels up and down the mountainside so I took the train down the side of the mountain and then spent the day walking back up meandering through some pretty special little monasteries.
It was in the last monastery that I was informed the great master of the lineage will arrive any day now, and that I should stay in Darjeeling to meet him as this is an auspicious happening for me.Low n’ behold as soon as I met His Holiness (The Drukpa). My heart connected with his and I knew that this being was the teacher for me. I was so excited.
But after the ecstasy comes the laundry and I had some stains to remove. The big teaching for me from the law of nature was 'equanimity'.How easy it was for me to fluctuate between extreme livings.
After my India journey, I decided to renounce things like materialism. Minimise my clothes and all the things I stored up from the past I gave away or threw out. I minimised my food. Not for an intention to loose weight but to detach from any attachments that I had toward food. I even removed myself from society, as I felt misunderstood by people.
Jan.s: Nicole can you tell us a a little more regarding this…
Nicole: I also had a deep fascination with the Indian Sadhu and took another journey to India to find out more about these Holy men of India. That journey was different than expected and it really shook my bones. I saw and experienced extreme living. Holy men who devote their lives to standing all day and all night.Ascetic living.
Other Sadhus would be living in caves or small huts along the shores of the river Ganges. I slept in caves, on side of roads, in temples and run-down buildings. I travelled mostly by walking and caught the odd lift in the back of a truck, around parts of India.
Indulging in the ascetic life I momentarily forgot about the ones who meant the most, my spiritual master, my family, my friends.
When I arrived back in Australia from the ascetic journey, I felt exhausted, confused and in shock.I managed to take shelter in a hostel ran by an under cover Nun who embraced my presence like a mother seeing her child for the first time in ages.
Everyone at the hostel was there to recover from one thing or another. “Love” was the fundamental support. We sat in love, talked to love and love healed us all. It was love that reminded me of my true nature, the open and joyful person that I was and still am. I realised that extreme living was not going to give me the wisdom that my spiritual master would give me, yet I had to go through that journey to realise that.
So I went back out into the big world to help who I could. I nurtured my best friend from High School as she passed away from cancer. That was quite an extraordinary experience. I lay beside her so she didn’t feel alone. We visualised white light together passing through our bodies. We reminisced of old times back in high school together. Then she passed and I kept reminding her that she is a spiritual being having a human experience. I spoke at her funeral in hope to make people laugh because that’s what my friend would have liked. And they did…
So then I took a flight to Ireland to help a friend. From there I flew to England. There I was able to reconnect with my beloved teacher in a 10 day retreat. I purified intensively using great methods in the Drukpa Kargu Lineage of Tibetan Buddhism.
I lived in Bath, England for seven years, marrying my husband and starting a family. That’s another journey. Now living in the country side of Victoria, Australia with my family of three children a husband, three goats, nine chickens and a veggie patch, I feel all my past journeys have made my life so precious today. I can live my life without extremes and teach my children to do the same. I have learnt that we are all here to do the same things, and that is to be happy, to help one another, to learn from nature and respect nature. To always remember we are spiritual beings having a human experience.
So we must enjoy our aches n’ pains and let go of expectations.
Love all, trust a few and row your own canoe. Cheers Nicole
(The Drukpa Kargyu Lineage of Tibetan Buddhism)
All photos are the copyright of Nicole Fox-Humber 2010
I would like to acknowledge that Nicole played a major role in my healing after the effects of breast cancer. Her boundless joy and powerful healing intent as a Reiki Master were beyond my knowledge and expectations...she was a true master at such a young age. I have some beautiful photos from those early years when we first met but still have to scan them. Thank you Nicole for sharing your journey with us. Jan.s